it’s the 12th. it’s may. it’s the year 2010 (roman calendar time) tomorrow is the height of the new moon in Taurus. so, what does that all mean? well, probably not much to many of you. obvious stated facts, you might be thinking. but for some of you reading this, it means a great deal more…. energetically/metaphysically/spiritually, even mystically speaking.
and for a few others, there may be a resonance in that statement that underlies an interesting “feeling” that it DOES mean something more, but you’re just not quite sure or clear on what that feeling is or even what it might mean. it’s like being given a package that you’ve been told contains something REALLY good, something you will probably like very very much, but for right now you are only allowed to hold it… not quite allowed t0 open it just yet.
for me personally… well, let’s just say that the new moon cycles tend to “ramp things up” for me energetically speaking. so, what does that mean, you ask? well, let’s just also say the my connection to everything that “IS” becomes stronger, more palpable… and my work with students, clients and even on myself seems to flow much easier, clearer and often much deeper and more intense than usual.
those also close to me see how my physical energy level is often significantly affected. everything begins to buzz with activity… my mind, my body and certainly my Spirit. it’s akin feeling like a little kid with unabated giggly laughter and energy. i know some of y’all can relate to THAT statement! i can be that way outside of the full and new moon cycles, of course, but this is like turning up the volume in a way. it’s an interesting and fun phenomenon for me to perceive from within looking out, and based on the reaction i get from others, it can be quite amusing to observe from out there as well.
but it hasn’t always been this way. though not a stranger to feeling the effects of the Full Moon hanging big and fat in the air no matter what the season, i’ve only really noticed this significant shift into deeper levels of understanding and consciousness around the New Moon cycles just within the last eight to nine months. and as much as it is a joy to be in that state of connectedness and flow, it has taken some time for my physical body to adjust to what i sometimes refer to as the “moon marathon” of go-go-go, applying the increased energy levels in healthy, fun ways. as best i can atleast.
for those of you who know personally of what i speak here, you know the feeling. it’s not an all to rare event for those who work in the energetic fields of mind/body/spirit healing or psychic mediums. it can best be described as simply a pure connection to both Source (cosmic) and Earth energy fields.
some laugh and look at me with that, “what the heck have you been smokin?” look on their faces… followed with the ever-amusing “i’ll have what he’s having” commentary from time to time. when asked why i’m in such a good mood or where i get all my energy, i simply tell them the Truth…
“well, it’s just Pure Source Energy and this pure connection to all of Life is my elixir… my peace pipe, if you will. and it’s open to anyone and everyone, but it takes work to connect with the Flow of Life on its own cycles. there’s a lot of undoing and removing of internal road blocks that typically keep people from being able to feel the Flow, except for few and short-lived moments. i’ve done and continue to do my work, and this is one of the major rewards.”
i often get that look again along side a crooked smile and an “uh-huhhh… well, okay then.” (LOL) i don’t mind. it’s kinda funny in a way, because i see myself in just about eveyone i meet. i remember when i didn’t really understand it quite fully either. i mean, i had read about it, heard about it, maybe even had a sense about it. but it’s like fishing or sailboating or jumping out of a plane or something… you just won’t be able to fully understand it until you’ve had the chance to fully experience it beyond books, thoughts or brief encounters.
but i also know that this Pure Energy is not mine to hold. i mean really, how do you hold back a cosmic river in full flow?? well yes, i suppose i could try to dam it up, hold onto it, and attempt keep it and apply to my own very specific needs, wants or desires. but i also Know that the gift of connecting to an unlimited supply of Universal feel-goodness is not meant to be stifled and contained… and that’s why they call it “Being in the Flow”.
and so i find ways to flow the Energy outward into the World through my self-healing classes such as qigong, taichi, yoga and meditation…. through my individual client mind/body/spirit coaching work… through my writing… channeling messages for others… singing… laughing… smiling… dancing. you get the picture. and it is always perfect in how the Energy chooses to flow outwardly from this beingness state, and i find much joy in even the briefest of exchanges with the many, many people i meet along the way. so, i want to share just one recent example of this beautiful experiences of living and co-creating Life in the Flow…
at the time of this writing, i am just returning to atlanta from a short visit to asheville, nc. the purpose of this visit was to solidify some details about a live/work space that came into my awareness last week via a dear new (but old connected soul) friend and fellow lightworker and healer, Katie K. as some of you know, i was invited back in February of this year to Asheville, NC for my 38th birthday. of course, i said yes as the perfect weekend was constructed with a place to stay, free entry to a huge Moulin Rouge themed fundraiser party and an opportunity to ride on the Asheville Mardi Gras lead parade float with my exuberant host and also new friend, Michael P, who was dubbed “King of Mardi Gras” this year.
well, to make an incredibly long and super fun story short(er), by the time the 5 day weekend was drawing to an end, there were enough clear godwinks via the overall experience and literally dozens upon dozens of people (felt like hundreds really) that i met over the course fo the long weekend. the following question was presented to me… well, more of a statement really…
“roldan, we have decided,” three divine feminine sources said to me.
“yesssssss?” i replied with a inquisitive smile on my face, yet somehow knowing what they were about to say.
“well, we like you and we think you should live here. we don’t know why you don’t already live here. you should be here with us! we just love you!”
it seemed as if their heads nodded and mouths, smiled and moved in perfect unison as if they had rehearsed the message prior to delivery. but i knew they hadn’t, and i had only met all three within the previous 72 hours. one of them, i only met that evening over dinner. i had to take pause. inside, if i wasn’t already smiling from cosmic ear to ear, then i was beaming a big fat grin as big as the Universe as i looked into the faces of each of these beautiful souls. all i could see and hear was God speaking… through these three strong, loving females.
looking up from my heartspace for a moment, brought my brain back into the conversation. i thought to myself, “is this really happening? what am i hearing here? and could they be right? maybe i should be here… maybe…”
and with that, i engaged my “heartmind” (that still quiet Voice inside) into contemplation. it felt good. and not only did it feel good, it felt absolutely right and perfect. all i could say was, “you know… i believe you’re absolutely right.” no matter how hard i tried, i couldn’t come up with any argument to the proposal.
on the ride home to atlanta at the end of that weekend, i contemplated the series of events. of course, i was pretty emotionally, physically and energetically (spiritually) high from the weekend. did i mention it was also the height of a New Moon cycle that weekend (feb 13, 2010)? as mentioned earlier, i was feeling SO connected to everything and everything was flowing and connecting just perfectly. by the end of the weekend i also had a couple of offers for a place to live. i just had to laugh at the perfection of it all.
but despite what some might think, even though i happen to carry the full-on double (Sun and Moon) air sign traits of the Aquarian Constellation, i also can display a very pragmatic side. i knowwwww, right?! (LOL) anyway, i sat with the experience and shared the information with friends and family. i decided to go back two weeks later to “check out” asheville without all the birthday and holiday hoopla going on. no agenda other than to just BE a part of the community. play pretend for a moment and see what it would look and feel like if i WERE to actually live there. i just wanted to be sure that i WAS reading and hearing the signs clearly. by the end of that weekend it was clear. a resounding YES was ringing in my head and heart. now the logistics. move time ETA… end of May? that gave me approximately two months to prepare and do what i had to do.
so, now it’s May… the 12th actually… with the end of May not far away. i made all the announcements, and people have been asking when the big move is going to be. meanwhile, i’ve informed my students, teachers, clients and friends that i will be traveling back and forth regularly between atlanta and asheville for some time while things get established. i want to continue my work with folks in atlanta as well, but up until last week, i still didn’t have a home or apartment confirmed in asheville. the question of when and where i was going to live still up in the air. i told anyone who would ask,
“well, in THIS moment, the intended date for me is still end of May or first part of June, as far as i can tell. that’s the feeling i’m still getting. but i Know Source has bigger perspective and a broader view of the overall situation from a higher field of sight. so, i’m doing my best to align mine with that…. we shall see.”
but trusting God takes work because we are all so used to wanting to control the outcome of everything. it’s how we were trained… unfortunately. and it requires Trust and Faith which… go ahead, admit it… for many of us is hard to do because our faith and trust in others has been tested and “failed” upon by many of our human brothers and sisters. that’s okay though, i knew i had more than enough to fill a mustard seed, and i was going to stick it through until i received clarity that the current plan has changed or somehow evolved into something all together different or even better.
katie and i were thinking about sharing a space, but i recently found out that she is being called by Source and Life to California and eventually Hawaii. michael’s downstairs space was still available up on the mountain, but i REALLY wanted to be the downtown area where i could live and work and walk and just connect more with the community. something much more difficult to do in a city like atlanta. i was hitting a few “road blocks”. i recognized some doubts and nervousness beginning to rise up into the process. i quickly worked through them, releasing any and all fears and doubts in my daily practice of energy work, meditation and prayer. i knew this was a test of my Trust and assurance on the process. so last week i went directly back to Source…
“Dear Source, Guides and Angels… i’m at a bit of an impasse here and need your guidance. what is it that you would have me do? Am i still to go to Asheville at this time? Show me what it is I am missing? And if the plan is still in effect, I ask for a clear sign for a place to live and work within the city that would be perfect for the work and play we are about to set out and do. Thank you, thank you, thank you for this great opportunity to learn, grow, teach and do some really fun and amazing things.” -me
and, as the saying goes… i “let it go and let God” take care of the rest. or as i alternatively like to say in energy work class… “let It go and let It Flow!” three days later i get a call from katie…
“hi brother! it’s katie. i’m standing here with my friend, Luna. she’s the owner of the Sacred Embodiment Center, in downtown asheville. they have a little loft apartment in the back of the studio, and she’s looking for someone to help them to grow. someone smart and with some marketing background. someone connected. i mentioned you and i think you guys should definitely talk!”
needless to say, Luna (aka, the name means ” the Moon”) and i DID talk. first on the phone last friday. turned out she was heading out of town for the summer on tuesday, May 11th!! i was in asheville on monday the 10th, two days ago. and effective June 1st i have a beautiful place to live AND work in the downtown asheville area! i literally only have to hop of out my bed and walk five feet and i’m in a beautiful studio to teach classes, hold events, and help grow over the summer.
and so, there you go… Life in the Flow. that’s just one example of how it works, kids. and i can hear what you’re saying. don’t worry…. i know… and believe me, it’s hard until it’s not. the biggest question i get when i’m teaching or working with a coaching client is, “how does one get there? i just don’t know how to do it. my mind keeps getting in the way.” it’s a sincere and honest question for sure. and my answer is always the same, “just like everything else… you make a decision that you are GOING to get there and begin to make the necessary steps, one by one, towards that destination. YOU decide.”
there’s an ancient saying i use a lot and one of our mantras here at On-Common-Ground, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” another knowing that we have all heard is that “we must crawl before we walk and walk before we run.” like ALL things in Life, things take focus, determination and practice, practice, practice! you didn’t allow and/or create the chaos or stress in your life overnight, so don’t expect to immediately jump directly into the Pure and Perfect Flow overnight. BUT we are in a day and age where ideas and things move VERY quickly… even time.
make the decision today to start a practice to turn and walk in the direction of your dreams. allow the Universe to support you in your quest, because it absolutely wants to. find the people, places and things that will help you dismantle your mental construct of limiting beliefs of what is possible. and know that EVERYTHING is ENERGY. Everything, even your Life, is meant to flow in and out towards greater growth and abundance. when you truly truly “get” that, you will experience you own beautiful cycles of flow into every segment, every crack and crevice, and every molecule of your Being.
“Energy is never owned, only borrowed. And once you are through with it, you have to give it back.” from Avatar the Movie
What’s stopping YOU? join me… it truly is amazingly beautiful. if i can do it, anyone can! i promise. =)
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deep gratitude and namaste, Pheonyx