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“I Wish You Enough” by Bob Perks*


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“I Wish You Enough” by Bob Perks (*edited version: see commentary below) 

Recently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport as the daughter’s departure had been announced. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, ”I love you and I wish you enough.”

The daughter replied, “Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.” They kissed and the daughter left.

The mother walked over to the window where I sat. Standing there, I could see she wanted and needed to cry.  I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, “Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?”

“Yes, I have,” I replied. “Forgive me for asking but why is this a forever good-bye?”

“I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is the next trip back will be for my funeral,” she said.

When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, “I wish you enough.” May I ask what that means?”

She began to smile. “That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.” She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more.

“When we said ‘I wish you enough’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them”.  Then turning toward me, she shared the following, reciting it from memory,

“I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hello’s to get you through the final good-bye.”

She then began to cry and walked away.  They say it takes a minute to find a special person. An hour to appreciate them.  A day to love them.  And an entire life to forget them.  That moment I shall remember for all eternity.

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“Gratitude is the Glue” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith


Thank you to a recent new friend, Troy Stoner, for sharing this beautiful video (see below).  I urge so many people who come to me with the question, “How can I shift the reality of my life from receiving what I don’t want to the things that I know I do deep down… to live a full and joy-filled life?”  And I say to them, the door is Forgiveness and to let go of the life you once lived which has offered great lessons of contrast to the life experience you now most desire for yourself. The practice is to love everything that is and to be grateful for what it is (and was) and its ability to transform your experience from simply being the experiencer of it to becoming the Being who comes into the full experiencing of all of it… in ALL of its fullness and amazing beauty. Even in this moment when perhaps you can not quite see it… yet. Gratitude is the glue that holds all things together once the experience has passed, while at the same time allowing for the fluidity of the full flow of a life in love with life itself.

Much love and appreciation for this sharing and you. I hope you are well and living the life you are dreaming and the one that Life/Source dreams of living through you. I hope this hits you as beautifully and powerfully in the heart chakra is it did me. <3

Namaste, Pheonyx

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“Reflection of Me” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith


“Reflection of Me” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith (July 13, 2011)

It’s like I can see you
in the back of my mind.,,
wavy brown hair.
blue-green eyes perhaps.
ruggedly handsome in that
mid-western-boyish-charm sorta way.
a smile that would charm most women
and even some men.,,
you had that way about you.

I can see that somewhere
in the reflection that stares back at me
as I brush the teeth you gave me;
stare back into the eyes you have imprinted.

I am twice the age you were when you met her.
The one you would scar for at least half my lifetime,
while we maneuvered through the returning memories of you
which would rise up in the ways I walked, talked or even thought.
When we would begin to question
the presence of your ghost inside of me.

As a boy, I looked for you
within the face of every father
of every story I ever read, heard or saw.

As a young man, I listened for you
within the angry and sad hearts of men
who somehow forgot themselves,
only to be remembered
by the loved ones they left behind.

As a slightly older man,
you came to me in a dream
still hiding in the shadows of my mind
until you were brave enough to
cast your eyes on a boy
born in light but of slightly
different blood who would
bear my witness to your love.

I can not claim you as dead to me,
as I have never known you as alive;
except when I hear your voice
rising from the center of my own chest
whispering those words I never heard
from you when i was a boy…
“I love you son, and I’m sorry.”

I know, Dad.

I love you, too.

Don’t be sorry.

I see you every time I take a deeper look
into your own reflection staring back at me.

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“Friends: The Gift That Keeps On Giving” via the DailyOM.com


Friends...whose faith in you could lift you right up out of yourself.

“Gifts We Give Ourselves: Friends” via The DailyOM.com

Good friends enrich our lives in so many ways. Through a magical combination of similarities and differences, friends offer us the opportunity to know ourselves as we are and help us grow into who we want to be. Our similarities attract us to each other, comforting us with familiarity when we see ourselves in them. When we are drawn to those we admire, the same recognition is at work, unconsciously acknowledging that these people possess qualities that we ourselves possess. By acting as mirrors, friends help us define who we are by reflecting our selves back to us.

“Treasure the Friends that Cheer You on to Your Highest Potential”

Friends also help us know ourselves through our differences. Differences allow us to see other options and make choices about who we want to be. Sometimes we are drawn to those who appear to be our opposites, and we learn to accept the parts of them we love and the parts of them that don’t resonate with us, thus allowing us a valuable learning experience. By expanding our understanding to include others’ experiences, friends help us accept others. By understanding when someone’s life differs from our own, we can learn about ourselves in contrast. There are times when we see in friends what we don’t like about ourselves. That mirror reflection may be hard to take, but a good friend helps us find ways we can change and supports us in that choice.

Part of the joy of friendship is the feeling that we are accepted just the way we are, with no need to change. It is a gift they give us, and one we can give back every day. Ultimately, we choose friends because they make us feel good about ourselves and life. Through tears and difficulties, friends help us find the laughter. When we find those special people who offer us that perfect combination of comfort and stimulus to grow, we are very fortunate. Friends, those wonderful companions that walk with us through life, help us define and refine who we are and who we choose to be every day.

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“Pity Party of One,Your Table is…” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith


I literally have tears of joy and deep appreciation flowing down my face right now… AGAIN!… Lawd, it’s a wonder I have any tears left sometimes!  I LOVE this guy.  The first time I saw one of his videos, I was like one of these kids.  Eyes in wonder, heart in a deep place of trying to even imagine what it would be like if I were in his shoes… well, shorts… wait that didn’t sound right either… his place… eerrrrr… situation.  Nick Vujicic (subject of the video below) is an amazing inspiration.  And like those kids (who are also amazing!), I hung onto every word he had to say.  Nick’s message and his very BEing breaks all the preconceived rules/expectations and it definitely breaks the barriers.

The moment I opened the video, my heart began to flood.  It’s strange sometimes to even observe myself feel so deeply and connect so strongly with others.  As a child I remember having to apologize for the empathy I felt for others which, at the time, I couldn’t understand.  When I was still very young, like eight or nine years old, I would see tragic events or terrible things happen on TV or in the movies and go into deep bouts of uncontrollable crying as if the event or situation had happened directly to me.  Especially when it involved children or older people.  I guess I always felt that the healthier more mid-life folks had better ability to protect themselves.  Although I did feel bad for them too if something bad happened to them.  I mean… usually.  =)~

But the same was true when I observed happy occasions from afar.  The event or scene could have been something on TV or in a movie.  Didn’t matter.  Felt very very real for me, and again, I often reacted as if I were physically there in the space feeling all the beautiful energies of joy and celebration.  And too, I would often find myself crying… again.  ESPECIALLY when people found that auspicious, rare kind of Love.  You know, the “OMG, he/she found his/her soulmate!” storyline.

I knowwww… You’re like, “Helloooooo!  Everyone gets emotional on that one. Duhhhhh!.”  Yeah, but were you a boy?… age 7?… slightly round?… with a slight lisp?… and trying not to ball your eyes out in public?!  Yeah, I know right?!.  And if you were, well then hey, call me.  LOL… just kidding.  It’s cool now.

ANYwhooooooo… where was I?  Oh right… ahem…   So, I understand the deep connection now and how it is so much a greater gift than a burden in the service work I am now committed to in the World.

Well, like the video title says… “Look at Yourself AFTER You Watch This video“.  You may not be gushing underground wellsprings by the end of it.  But then again, maybe you will.  And that’s okay too (even you guys out there.)   But don’t worry, we won’t tell anyone.  I promise.  Yessss, I totally promise.  But seriously, truly ALLOW yourself to connect with this one.  See the Nick in you.  Allow yourself to see the you in Nick.

Go ahead, watch it right now…  and then come back here and read the rest of this writing. Go ahead… click play now.  I’ll wait… Actually, I’m going to go make me a quick sandwich.  I’ll be back by the time you are done though.  Yes, I promise.

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Welcome back.   Now take a deep breath and tell yourself  “Thank You”.   I mean really give yourself some gratitude, real and sincere.  And then take a moment to realize that we ALL have our own greatest fears, angers, worries, frustrations, and short-comings… literal AND figurative…  which we tend to focus on instead of the many gifts we also possess.  And when we’re not quite aware of the bigger picture and fully conscious just yet, we also don’t realize the very valuable gifts we can receive when we learn how to accept, embrace and give gratitude to all those things that cause strife in our lives.

Our fears, doubts and anger can (and usually are) are our absolute greatest teachers and life lesson bringers IF we choose to look at them with a higher consciousness magnifier… something I have come to refer to as the “heartmind“.  It is the heart of the essence of You.

 

“I may not have hands to hold my wife’s hands… but when the time comes, I’m able to hold her heart.  I don’t need hands to hold her heart.” -Nick Vujicic

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Your Life IS beautiful by the simple fact that you HAVE it in the first place.  There are many souls who are no longer with us in the physical who would be absolutely willing to trade spaces with you this very minute if they had the choice, knowing what they know now and looking back here from the other side.  I’m willing to bet my bottom dollar on it.   BUT their lives were theirs, and what they did (and didn’t) do with it when they had life was up to them.  The same is true for you.  Right here.  Right now.

Where’s your glass??  Take a look at it.   Raise it up.   Now look into it.  No, not literally.  It’s a metaphor, silly.  See it in your mind’s eye.  Go on.  Is it half full or half empty??  And is there a difference really in the analogy?  Or is it just another statement that pisses you off when you hear someone ask you it?  Does it peeve you to no end when someone (like one of your happy-go-lucky-new-agey friends perhaps?  or your mom?) makes the cliché statement like, “Oh but look at the bright side, honey!” ?

If the answer to any of those questions is yes, well then I will say right here…  if you can’t currently see any possible inkling of even a dimly lit, even slightly brighter side, then I HIGHLY recommend you watch the video again, and then take another look at yourself… your situation… your lot you are currently in.  And look a little longer and a lotta bit deeper into yourself.

And if that doesn’t help!  well, then call me…  I have a loving metaphysical 2×4 that I bet I can create a few wake up stars to help you see a little bit more “light” around the situation!  LOL… compassionately and lovingly, of course.

But seriously,  NOW is the time to begin to wake up to the reality that you are NOT your circumstances, but you ARE the result by how you look at, live, learn and grow from them.  This is true for ALL of us, because we are all powerful, beautiful and perfectly flawed beings in all our own little ways.  Life is the journey of seeing, allowing and flowing your flaws and your perfections together into your own bigger and better version of your Life Experience that is the key to unlocking the door to a great big secret to greater joy and abundance in your Life.  The name of the key?  Simple.  It’s Gratitude.

Be the change you are seeking for your own Life.  FIND the courage to live life magnificently instead of choosing to be a victim of your own making and blaming your circumstances and the people around you.   Your circumstances do NOT define you, but they CAN refine and even re-define you into the connected Being you so desire your Self to be.  When you’re not decorating the cake for yet another self loathing, pity party of one, I mean.

I love you, and you are loved by others.  Can you… do you… WILL YOU choose to love and appreciate yourself as well?  First and foremost.  For you can not give to others what you do not have.   You just need to learn to appreciate this simple fact as well.  The Time is now.  It always is.  YOU get to decide.  Gratitude is the glue to a greater you.

in love, light and so much gratitude for you,  Pheonyx

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Shifting Perspectives to a Higher Field of Sight


it’s the 12th.  it’s may.  it’s the year 2010 (roman calendar time)  tomorrow is the height of the new moon in Taurus.  so, what does that all mean?  well, probably not much to many of  you.  obvious stated facts, you might be thinking.   but for some of you reading this, it means a great deal more…. energetically/metaphysically/spiritually, even mystically speaking.

Himalayan Moonrise by swamysk.

and for a few others, there may be a resonance in that statement that underlies an interesting “feeling” that it DOES mean something more, but you’re just not quite sure or clear on what that feeling is or even what it might mean.   it’s like being given a package that you’ve been told contains something REALLY good, something you will probably like very very much, but for right now you are only allowed to hold it…  not quite allowed t0 open it just yet.

for me personally… well, let’s just say that the new moon cycles tend to “ramp things up” for me energetically speaking.  so, what does that mean, you ask?  well, let’s just also say the my connection to everything that “IS” becomes stronger, more palpable…  and my work with students, clients and even on myself seems to flow much easier, clearer and often much deeper and more intense than usual.

those also close to me see how my physical energy level is often significantly affected.  everything begins to buzz with activity… my mind, my body and certainly my Spirit.  it’s akin feeling like a little kid with unabated giggly laughter and energy.  i know some of y’all can relate to THAT statement!    i can be that way outside of the full and new moon cycles, of course, but this is like turning up the volume in a way.  it’s an interesting and fun phenomenon for me to perceive from within looking out, and based on the reaction i get from others, it can be quite amusing to observe from out there as well.

but it hasn’t always been this way.  though not a stranger to feeling the effects of the Full Moon hanging big and fat in the air no matter what the season, i’ve only really noticed this significant shift into deeper levels of understanding and consciousness around the New Moon cycles just within the last eight to nine months.  and as much as it is a joy to be in that state of connectedness and flow, it has taken some time for my physical body to adjust to what i sometimes refer to as the “moon marathon” of go-go-go,  applying the increased energy levels in healthy, fun ways.  as best i can atleast.

for those of you who know personally of what i speak  here,  you know the feeling.  it’s not an all to rare event for those who work in the energetic fields of mind/body/spirit healing or psychic mediums.  it can best be described as simply a pure connection to both Source (cosmic) and Earth energy fields.

some laugh and look at me with that, “what the heck have you been smokin?” look on their faces… followed with the ever-amusing  “i’ll have what he’s having” commentary from time to time.  when asked why i’m in such a good mood or where i get all my energy, i simply tell them the Truth…

“well, it’s just Pure Source Energy and this pure connection to all of  Life is my elixir… my peace pipe, if you will.  and it’s open to anyone and everyone, but it takes work to connect with the Flow of  Life on its own cycles.  there’s a lot of undoing and removing of  internal road blocks that typically keep people from being able to feel the Flow, except for few and short-lived moments.  i’ve done and continue to do my work, and this is one of the major rewards.”

i often get that look again along side a crooked smile and an “uh-huhhh… well, okay then.”   (LOL)  i don’t mind.  it’s kinda funny in a way, because i see myself in just about eveyone i meet.  i remember when i didn’t really understand it quite fully either.  i mean, i had read about it, heard about it, maybe even had a sense about it.  but  it’s like fishing or sailboating or jumping out of a plane or something…  you just won’t be able to fully understand it until you’ve had the chance to fully experience it beyond books, thoughts or brief encounters.

but i also know that this Pure Energy is not mine to hold.  i mean really,  how do you hold back a cosmic river in full flow??  well yes, i suppose i could try to dam it up,  hold onto it, and attempt  keep it and apply to my own very specific needs, wants or desires.   but i also Know that the gift of connecting to an unlimited supply of  Universal feel-goodness is not meant to be stifled and contained… and that’s why they call it “Being in the Flow”.   Read the rest of this entry »

 

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“Perfectly Practicing Perfection In My Purposeful Practice” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith


 

 

“So today, I affirm that I am one day closer to the ultimate perfection of my highest, purest potential in Life!! Which is also one day further ahead in equal part and time… my goal for perfection that is… as to stay one step ahead of me so that I may have something to strive for as I perfect my practice on a day to day level.    Right…

And so then, i’m exactly where I was yesterday…. hmmmmm…  relatively speaking, I mean.  as it pertains to my practice towards perfection as measured in this current time/space reality…  which is an illusion really… again, relatively speaking… as time and space are now known to both be much more malleable than originally believed based on certain quantum physical laws of the Universe figured out by that E=mc2 guy.  You knowwww…  the really smart one with the white-gray hair and that funny mustache!?

OH! and there’s that “mind perceiving my surroundings creating my own perception of reality around me” thing.  you know, like how an hour at the DMV can feel like a whole fricken day sorta thing.  Riiiiiiiigghhht… okay… So, where was I…?   OH RIGHT!

So,  I’m exactly where I was yesterday but one day closer to the ultimate perfection of my highest, purest potential in this Life!   So… i’m a step a head AND kinda sorta where I was BUT i’m EXACTLY where I’m supposed to be in any given moment!! RIGHT!   So, that means that everything is EXACTLY PERFECT in the exact moment that it is occuring,  BECAUSE  if it wasn’t then it wouldn’t be what it IS!   It in fact, would be something completely other than what it is, if it wasn’t meant to be perfectly when/where/why it is right now!   SOOOOOOO….  (long deep breath… annnnd…)

I AM EXACTLY WHERE I AM, AND WHERE I AM IS EXACTLY WHERE I’M SUPPOSED TO BE,  AND I AM ALWAYS PERFECTLY PRACTICING PERFECTION IN MY PURPOSEFUL PRACTICE IN EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF THE DAY… GOOD, BAD OR INDIFFERENT…

WHILE ALWAYS SEEKING THE OPPORTUNITY TO LEARN FROM MY CURRENT EXPERIENCE IF I DON’T LIKE IT…  WHILE FINDING CREATIVE INSPIRATION OR SIMPLE ALLOWING OF THE ONES I FEEL RELATIVELY INDIFFERENT ABOUT…  WHILE ALL THE WHILE, APPRECIATING ALL OF THE EXPERIENCES AND ESPECIALLY THE GOOD ONES AS I MOVE ALONG THE PATH OF LIFE.  COOL!  SEEEEEEEE PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT INDEED!

thanks Bob!  ;,)~  and so it is!    love, one of your boys on the ground… peace out!

Roldan

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BlogShare: “From One Cracked Pot to Another” -Author Unknown


An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which she carried across her neck.  One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water.  At the end of the long walks from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full.  For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water.  

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments.  But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do.  After two years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. “I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house.”

The old woman smiled,  “Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot’s side?  That’s because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them.  For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table.  Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house.”

Each of us has our own unique flaws, but it’s the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding.  You’ve just got to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them.

So, to all of my cracked pot friends, have a great day and remember to smell the flowers on your side of the path!

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“From Suffering to Service” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith


NOTE: while going through some old writings i found a piece or two that had never made to the posting stage… LOL… so posting them now!  it’s all purefect… always.  love/laugh/live, my friends… always, roldan

“From Suffering to Service” by Roldan F. Smith posted 03/18/10 (originally composed 09/01/09)

I’m just sitting nodding my head in gratitude and appreciation for all the beautiful synchronicities I have been receiving through no less than dozens upon dozens… Shoot, even hundreds of people, things, conversations, events in this past week.  A profound week of rest/hibernation/cocooning just after Labor Day weekend, followed by this most recent week of quantum level energy/information/creation/understanding/clarity downloads, culminating up to and into a HUGE SELF-AWAKENING process taken place this past Thursday morning on North Ave on my way to teach a qigong class.

Yet another self-realization which turned into a deep awareness of self-understanding which turned into being able to clearly and perfectly see the connections of the past, present, and future of my life.  Moment after moment, becoming even more fully awake to “what is”, ensued by yet another moment of deeper surrender to the process.  And in that moment, an ecstatic sense of Love, Joy and Grace filled the inner chambers of my heart that moved me to tears so strong I had to pull over and simply be and breathe with it all. And all I was left with was the sweet and humble mutterings of the words “Thank you… Thank you… Thank you…” to the Source Creator, my Guides and the many guiding Angels of my life for yet another precious gift for my soul on its journey through this human life experience.

I later realized the vast depth of the Love/Gratitude moment which aligned with another similar moment that occurred almost exactly a year ago from today, which marked another significant shift in/on me, causing me to surrender more deeply into trusting the greater powers that be and promising to pay more close attention to both the inner and outer road signs which would lead me down the path I so desperately desired and needed to understand.  I experienced a self-realization beyond any other awakening experience to date… and by that time there had already been quite a few of these experiences, each one building upon the other.  And I remembered IT… an almost unbearable emotional depth of Love, Peace, Grace and Compassion that descended upon my soul in this physical body.  And as well, I felt I was being “remembered by It” as well… It being the Source of the Universe itself, that which most beings refer to as “God”

The first time I experienced something like any of this before happened about a year ago, and it buckled me to my knees. I had not felt this connection to the Universe so strongly up to that point, and it came from within me as much, if not more so, from outside of me.  It was as if the weight of the world and all its pain and suffering of my own life were lifted from me. Never in this current life, had I felt so expanded.  Until that very moment.  I had not ever felt so free of burden, shame, guilt, doubt, fear or regret.

As I breathed deeply through the moments and allowed the energy to flow though me, I felt myself being “cleared out” of old thoughts, worries, and old limiting ideas of my self and even others.  I asked for  forgiveness from the Universe, from those I had ever hurt or offended, knowingly or unknowingly.  And most deeply, I asked for forgiveness of myself.  I knew I had to allow myself to forgive myself.  And I also knew on some level that the act of forgiveness was the ultimate key at this point of my journey.  In the end, what remained was a pureness of Love without a single ounce of judgment.  And it was both powerful and gentle at the same time. And as I bent over shedding what felt like a river of tears of pure thankfulness for the beauty of the whole experience, my Soul was shouting, “Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!… for not forgetting me! For reminding me in this moment why I chose to come here!”

In an instant I realized the how all the opposing contrasts of my experience which involved the pain and suffering associated with the core issue of feeling abandoned, unworthy, unwanted and unloved since I could even remember as a child served two primary purposes for my greater life journey.  I also realized the greater significance of how the contrast would serve me so that I would be able to be of greater service to the people who would be seeking to both teach me AND learn from me as part of their own process of awakening from the illusionary reality that holding onto suffering creates.

So… all of this culminates at a point of 37 Earth years (a number 10 in numerology, mind you) at the time of this writing.  Yet, it feels like everything has occurred at warp speed at the same time.  Time is very much only a concept of our minds, and I am literally losing much of a sense of it while still holding onto the awareness that time is here to serve a purpose in this 3D physical/intellectual/human reality.  However, time is based on numbers… singles, sets of and cycles of numbers.  And as an somewhat amateur numerologist as of late, I realize that numbers have always played a significant role for me.  I believe there’s more than just a simple “curiosity” at work here in my interest to understand how many of the significant events which have taken place in my own life as well as throughout human history which “coincidently” share similar, if not the exact same, perfectly matched numerical patterns.  But more on that at a later date, I’m sure.

As for me, my physical entry occurred upon 02/13/1972.  This time around at least.  And in this here and now,  I AM.  And from this point forward, I continue… always and at the same time never exactly the same.  Evolution pretty much works on that singular premise of changing constants. The same is true for each and every one of you. You just have to decide to believe in the greatest of all these things… Love for the simple sake of Life… for the two, Love and Life, are truly one in the same… or “same-same” as my the Phillipino side of my family and friends like to say.  =)~

Thank you, and I love you all!  To bigger and even more amazing things into the “great unknown” of Greater Knowing….

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“Let go the past, let go the future, and let go what is in between, transcending the things of time. With your mind free in every direction, you will not return to birth and aging.” -The Buddha

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“Rise Up! Do Not Tarry!” Pheonyx Roldan Smith


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“Rise Up!  Do Not Tarry!” by Pheonyx Roldan Smith

With each breath, you are renewed… 

With each drop of morning dew… 

With each ray of sun upon the sand or stone or snow or broken sinew.  

Know that you are a creator of a many wonderous and magnificent things 

by the simple fact that you are a child of God through which the Universe sings…

An individualized and perfect embodiment of the original creative Source,

You are not broken, not lost, not devoid of the force

That runs through your body and mind and the path of your course.

Rise up!  Do not tarry!  Do not be plundered or remain on your knees!

Do not sit there and tell me to walk away if you please!

But rather pick your head up and look upon these eyes which do see

How the greatest of things come from that which on the inside we bleed.

And with that Truth comes great power and substance and ease

To to move beyond that which your fear and can no longer appease.

Do this in honor and memory of those

who have come and paved a way

the many ways before you

so that you too may see.

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